" I just don't know what to do.."

Salam..

:(

I just don't know what should I do..

Why,why, n why??

I know..there must be a good reason in everything that happen..

But..still..

Should I wait for him?

For a man that I love??

But..he doesn't even know that I love him..

And for sure..probably..he must've somebody else right now..

Dlu time skola..kteorg ckp sesme pn bole kire dgn jari sblh tgn je..

For 5 years..hmm..

'till now..it's been like almost 7 years..

unbelievable!!

why I like him so much??

It's weird..

means..I don't even know him well..so does he..for sure..

like we never even know each other..

he probably just know my name..and probably not..

And he seems so nice, quiet, and charming in his own way..I like that..

and he..Ya Allah..

Kuatkanlah aku..

perlu ke aku tunggu dia lagi??

Should I still wait for him to like me?

It feels like I'm waiting for nothing..zero n empty spaces!!

Sometimes..yes! I admit that I felt like I'm such a fool that wait for someone that looks likely I won't get a thing..sad..this is so sad..

I will try to my heart, my mind, to somebody else..out there..

that can make me happy, smile always..comfortable with..

That can take care of me..love me..be with me no matter what happen..

And he understands me very well..

Now, I think, I know..it's better to try to love someone that loves you..

Than feeling pain, when loving someone that not love you..

Watch him in that state make me startled..

Watch him in that state with someone else, make me felt angry..and sad..

And when I'm feeling angry and sad..it will turn to pain..

And when I'm in pain..that means I'm lose..

I dont' want to be such a loser..

I'll try my best to forget him..

I'll try to like someone else..

That InsyaAllah..are better than him..

Please make me strong, Ya Allah..

Only You knows what's better for me..

InsyaAllah..

I sooner or later..

I will found my true love and partners..

Berikanlah aku seseorang lelaki yang terbaik buat diriku, Ya Allah..

Seseorang yang dapat membimbingku..

Seseorang yang dapat menerima diriku seadanya..

Dengan rela, ikhlas dan redha..

Yang dapat menegurku jika aku melakukan kesilapan..

Yang dapat menjagaku..

Yang dapat menyukai, mengasihi, dan menyayangiku seikhlas-ikhlas hatinya..

Hanyalah keranaMu, Ya Allah..

InsyaAllah..

Amin.

Salam..